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    • Oh! waking is a bitter nightmare..when you constantly hang around the fringes of my dreams..

    ..my foundation is crumbling and shattered glass is falling all over sidewalks..

    ..i am collapsing and i am collapsing on myself.. i am shards of glass..and i am the person being wounded by the glass..

    ..there is a certain beautiful honesty about depression..

    ..will Candy and honey not ..sweeten the Bitter acrimony of life? ..if truth indeed be a fallacy, then should reality not be a lie?

    Truth is like water. A little of it quenches your thirst Too much of it..and you drown.

    Sunday, May 26, 2002

    i bought the two shorts frm rip curl
    now im severely in debt ...but i just couldnt resist!!!
    both pairs were the last item somemore!!

    todae ian dared me to sit on one of those kiddy ride thingies. u noe the kind where theres a car, and u put 50 cents inside and the thing will move about and music will play? the kind that we all loved as kids. so Ian dared me 10 bucks to sit on one of those. i mean..its easy money so i took the dare. he even offered to pay fer the ride. anywae, it was quite hard to squeeze into tt car coz apparantly im already FAR TOO BIG ( in size) fer stuff like tt..haha..well..it was a cramp fit..but i tot it would be worth e money ( for all the humilaition..everyone in the shopping centre was just staring..haha) well..turns out in the end the machine wasnt workin...and ian and the rest jus ran away leaving me to try to squeeze my way out of the machine. SIghz..i feel cheated. im in severe need of money. YEs. i am that desperate. haha

    went to the vjc concert todae. K waited fer me and he was late as a result.. im quite touched..haha, considering he was willing to miss out part of e concert to wait fer me.

    i reallie love the song mononoke hime
    its beautiful...it just...reallie touched my heart.. i wan the score..i so totaly wan the score so i can plae it on the flute..i reallie reallie like tt song..its one of my favourites! its just very sotthing to the year and quite emotional too

    dang..i dunno why but i seem to attract onli foreign workers. i dun understand why is it that onli foreign workers stare at me. Throuughout my whole bus ride this foreign worker kept staring and smiling str8 at me.. i hate it when that happens.. so bardy irritating! ok well..
    i shall stop complaning now..just had to let off some steam.. sighz...i mean if they r eye candy fine la..but...

    i cant wait fer camp synergy tmr
    i hope i made e right choice...camp over chinese exam!

    ..dawn...u r crazy...freakin crazy....

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/26/2002
    Saturday, May 25, 2002

    i LOVE SHOPPING

    ...but im so damn broke now..
    i kinda regret buying some of the stuff i did now..haiz...why..WHY DOES SHOPPING have to soo tempting!
    hhaaa..and i saw two pairs of boardshorts at rip curl tt i reaalie reaaaaalie like..
    sighz..i wann...but i got no more money

    ..its time i got my own sugar daddy..

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/25/2002
    Friday, May 24, 2002

    ...i want to fall in love with you.......
    ....i want to fall in love with you...
    ..i want to fall in love with you...

    the jars of clay song is just incredible...
    its so right..
    i just wanna fall in love with you.. somedae..

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/24/2002


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    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/24/2002

    haiz..im gona buy more belgium chocs after sch...im in the mood fer indulgence..and shopping..hooray...im on my way to getting a "slutty top"
    yiPeee... okay i noe im going mad but im just too happy and excited coz its the last dae of sch..at least fer this term! wow..i waited fer this dae real long.. :O)
    anywae... i was just doing alot of thinking and i suddenly the memories from the past came back ..

    it started when i got quite upset abt something, so i decided i needed a break and sat by this deserted stairs at the corridor, and p b saw me, and asked me not to sit there. He asked me to hurry or i would be late fer econs. ( like i really give a damn) Somehow i realli wasn in any mood fer econs. so i told him to leave first, and he stood there firmly and said "im gona stand here until u leave together with me" and i was almos abt to cry and i told him not to pity me. i told him theres no need to pity me la.. and he kept insisting that i leave together with him or he was gona stand here and just wait fer me. i mean i felt real damn bad la. He was being so nice to me and i was making life dificult for him. But i reallie needed my space and sometime to sort out my thoughts and feelings before i got too emotional. Thats the problem with me.. alwaes too emotional. i forced him to leave and i just sat there thinking. and i was thinking thru out the whole econs period..(my teacher evidently noticed my distraction)

    i remember him buying fried fish from my favourite stall and giving it to me. i was feeling so sick once last year ( physically emotional and spiritually) and he kept focing me to go canteen and eat..he alwaes reminds me to eat during recess. And refused to go coz i told him i was nauseous he came right back up with panadol and a packet of fried fish frm my fave store.. i felt so bad i wanted to cry. why was he so nice to me? why? why coz i didnt deserve it. and the worse was the fact he ACTUALLY REMEMBERED that was my fave food in the canteen..tho i never told him. then i remembered asking him "why?" and he smiled broadly and shrugged. whyy? i dunno why but despite everything he did fer me..i just can never ferget that fried fish incident...i dunno why...i hate it wen hes nice to me,sighz..actually...i dun hate it...

    i took out this bottle of fragrance that day, and when i smelled it, somehow it just reminds me of last year...all the tings. i dunno how that one smell can bring back so many memories, but it did ...then wehn i walk thru taka...i will alwas remember..how could i forget?

    G just messaged just now..and i feel totally rotten..i feel like crying coz shes been so damn nice to me and im alwaes imagining the worse..it was such a simple but sweet message. sighz...i realie didnt not whether i could trust her at first, and even up till now theres alwaes this tiny seed of doubt there u noe..i dun tink i can completely put my trust into anyone person.. its hard. And u noe.i dunno why i doubt her becoz shes just a damn nice fren ..but its hard la. we talked abt it before. shes a good person la. It took me quite long to realise..and im glad i have her. shes hepled me alot..i tink i shuld just stop doubting her and put some trust.

    wanted to tear up the picture i found in my bedroom. SOmehow it seemed like a lie, something that was fake..unreal..and something that ill never believe in again. i feel cheated whenever i look at the foto. i feel like ripping it up into a tiny million pieces and flinging it out of the window. if only the memories wee as easy to rip up and fling out of my heart, of my mind..and i dunno..i cant believe why i still keep the pictures..i dunno..its just no longer a part my my life....


    suddenly all these memories keep falling like pieces of a jigsaw refitting themselevs into my mind.. i never wanted to let my heart trust but i did. and now i feel so cheated. MAybe its my fault. its just tt everything is a constant reminder. the smell of tt fragrance...the taka chocolates..the space outside the library..the sms messages (which were gone now that my old one was stolen) i cant desecribe it. its just tt every little thin reminds me of something....ghim moh..the pancakes..everythin la..im being paranoid..but..
    it was once a real part my my life butits like no longer there. I feel like im just part of a dream..more like im a mere spectator watching my pass in front of my eyes. iM aware but i just wana continue to pretend i dunno anything..sometimes..its better to just play ignorant..maybe if i continue to do so, ill be able to tell myself all of it never happened..

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/24/2002
    Thursday, May 23, 2002

    CHin B***h DIdnt cOme todaE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
    which means todae was a relatively good dae! woo HOO everytime i see chin b***H in the morning i alwaes get BAD LUCK
    thankfully she didnt come todae
    yeyayy!
    double yeay ...coz tmr is the last dae of sch!!!!
    triple yeay..coz i didnt go fer tution todae!!!!
    sadly tho i had a chance to pon classes todae..i didnt coz no one to pon with..everyone was being a nerd and a guai kia todae..anywae i dun care...im gona go shopping tmr! hurrah!

    i just finished a whole box of belgium chocs..wad a luxury man..it was going fer half price!!! how could i resist???? i feel reallie fat now but im still pleased.. :O)..harhar

    i cant wait to go shopping tmr ..
    HURRAHHHH
    i got sooo many things i wan buy..plus its the great singapore sale..
    most of my frends have at least one "slutty top" its time i got one fer myself too...im dressing to guai-ly nowadays..haha

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/23/2002
    Wednesday, May 22, 2002

    had gp paper todae..
    it sucked ....but well..wads new. i decided to drop chinese in order to go fer camp synergy. Its my decision. EVEryone thinks im mad, but im convinced that i should follow my heart after all..
    my parents couldnt realie be bothered. They said its my own choice. Sometimes i dunno whether to be thankfully that my parents r quite bo chup or to be worried..siGHZ*

    im aching all over thankz to nafa. At least i managed to pass. Im so proud of myself. COnsidering e fact i never exercise and hardly do PE..i actually managed to pass. haha and even get A for shuttle run... :O) im so proud of myself. My PE teacher praised me too, coz he said im quite amazing..alwaes slack arnd can actually pass.. PLUS the fact that im one of the four gals in class whu actually took NAFA..everybody else ponned or gave excuse, thus he is quite pleased with me..haha..well..actually i oso dun wanna take nafa one leh..its onli coz im hoping to just take nafa and get it donw with..so the teachers will be more easy on me, and then can pon pe more easily..i dun see why i have to do pe wad. Im perfectly fit with or without PE..my nafa proves it..i mean im aching all over now...but it dosent mean anything..
    i just used yoko yoko for muscle pain. It dosent seem to be working. it seems to be making it worse! URGH...i cant even walk properly now..im serious..every muscle in my body is aching very badly from overdose of lactic acid. How i managed to get arnd in sch todae is a miracle. my body is aching very badly....HELP...i dun see why they say PE is good fer ur health. i think its detrimental to mine.. i mean just look at me...sighz..aching all over..

    OKAY i shall try to sop acting like a DA XIAO JIE...hmmm..my teacher called my ma yesterdae...its quite tragic...she was going on and on abt bad results. ponning sch and lotsa other unpleasant stuff.. frankly speaking..i dun see wads the fuss at all.. shes just making my mum stressed fer no reason. anywae..i tink my mum is quite bo chup these daes which is a good thing..

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/22/2002
    Monday, May 20, 2002

    i think im turning into a pig..

    ive been piggin out on ben and jerrys and haagen daaz this whole weekend and todae as well. Haagen daaz..cookies and cream, and i just bought two new ben and jerrys flavours.. "phish food" and "choncolate brownie fudge" You noe the minute i dip my spoon into the tub, i just cant stop! i noe i have absoultely NO SELF CONTROL..wen it comes to stuff like that....but i cant help it...who can resist? come on...Once youve tried the DIVINE ben and jerrys, u'll never wanna stop. Its even better then sex...(not like i would
    know..AHEM..im just makin an assumption..haha) ok..i tink im getting crappy..muz be coz im on a chocolate and sugar high

    i realie think im turning into a pigggg...help
    all ive been doing lately is gorging myself wif ice cream and chocs, and sleeping n slacking. i havent been doing Homework..im sleep in class all day, and any spare time i get...i eat! oh no..i cant help it...it wasnt like this in the past! Maybe i was a pig in my past life and my pig tendencies are coming out...sighz..but i dun mind living like that forever, you noe just eating and sleeping and slacking forever (prefably in hawaii) But this kinda lifestyle just dosent apply to singapore laz

    ive got to make a tough decision now. Its either i go fer camp synergy and give up my chinese exams (ie drop chinese) or i go fer chinese and dun go fer camp synergy. See, the chinese paper falls on the first dae of camp synergy. Though ill onli be missing three hours of the camp coz of exams, they still wunch let me go..their policy is you cant miss at all. Okay..the decision has to be made.. Go fer the camp, try to do some good in someones life, try to help and change someones life, or go fer chinese to better my future chances of university application? siGHz...my heart tells me to go fer the camp..but my brain..oh my practical head tells me to go fer the chinese exam. Okay...so should i follow my heart or follow my head...OH HELP...i dun wanna make the wrong decision.. :OP i wreallie hate making choices esp impt ones like this!

    wasted my time in tanjong pagar...(for God noes wad reason...was persuaded by frend) and one hour at the body shop todae!...incredible...its the longest time i stayed in the shop. thankz to vainpot and indecisive fren (haha..kidding) whu couldnt decide whether to buy the bath mud or cream. EVErything is the same fer me. i usually like to go body shop to buy the fragrances onli. i will buy wadever that smells nice..haha...

    tuesdae...
    sighz..i got NAFA tmr..prepare to fail..its a miracle im actually gona do the NAFA ...onli very few of the gals actually go fer PE, and let alone NAFA..and GET AWAY WITH IT. Im damn suay one..ill never ever get away with stuff like that..its alwaes like that.. SUAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


    GROAN..

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/20/2002
    Sunday, May 19, 2002





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    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/19/2002

    i had sooo much fun on saturday! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my weekends just ROCK!
    actually..i thought it was gona be a damn sian and boring dae...but it ended up reallie cool.. :O)
    i was a volunteer for the lena maria concert. Its like, we are stuident volunteers whu take kids frm the yuan ching sec sch (sec one) to the lena maria concert, and basically we r like their charges. We are supposed to keep them company, talk to them, take kare of them and look after them. It was 10 kids per grp. I was quite apprehnesive at first coz i tot they were gona be a rowdy uncontrollable bunch ( yes rowdy they were) but they were actually okay, and were reallie funny. I was lauighing so much i almost died. i mean these kidz are just so...haha funny. Ive never reallie seen kids like them before, i mean its a side of life ive never seen before. haha.. These kids are like experts on sex education..wow..imean the stuff they talked to us abt..i was like..so shocked and mortified! In secondary school, we were like brought up on this conservative eductaion system,and esp in sec 1 if one person mentioned the S word (sex la) then all of us would be like *gasp*! " oh..how can u tok abt such stuff..." i rem that we used to blush at such stuff and we never had the gall to tok abt sex like that. And i was quite appalled and stunned to hear these sec one girls talking abt sex so openly and casually..it was shocking but altogether VERY AMUSING.

    the concert was not bad altogther.. i tink LEna Maria has a beautiful voice...she sings reallie incredibly, and she reallie had alot of courage and passion. Its very inspiring and i think shes a VERY REMAKRABLE woman. She was born wif serious disabilities but she made a living out of singing, and she does it very well..God has truly blessed her , and her radiance and confidence does shine thru. i reallie admire her coz she has spirit! I wish i had half her passion and confidence! I had the feeling the kids werent paying attention to the concert coz they were superly hyperactive! Well..but tho they can be a mischeivous lot, i kinda had fun taking care of them, and i think they seem to realie like me too! I felt very happy coz its a reallie good feeling , to have these kids looking up to u, and actually..i dunno..listening to you. Its a very warm feeling inside! sighz...kinda like those kids..im gona miss them! actually, im Glad i went for this volunteer thing. It was not onli fun, but i enjoyed myself as well, learnt new stuff ..and yupz..

    aNYwae..the other fellow volunteers (my frenz) all had a great time and we went down to orchard for dinner later. Honestly the bunch of them are a down right crazy lot! we had so much fun in orchard just crapping and tokking kok. it was great. and we ever had time to plae some late nite pool...AHHHHHHH...i could almost get used to the slack life like this! ( but this lifestyle is keeping downright BROKE esp since late nites=! to taking cabs) Anywae, i was surrounded by a grp of heartbroken girls todae...2 of my galfrendz were both heartbroken...well..and frankly i felt quite weird coz i ddint noe how to comfort them but well...it was reallie great plotting up revenge techniques and methods, and YES..bitching abt guys...wonderful feeling..hahaa nuthing to cure a broken heart more then a major all girl..."dissing men" session. Some men r just jerks and they deserve it.. SOME..i feel quite sorry for my frends but frankly i dun reallie noe how to help them .. ALL i can do is try to cheer them up and think of GOOD ADVICE (in my opinion)

    sighz...too bad its gona be mondae again..
    i DUN WANT IT TO EVER BE MONDAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
    anywae..im still tinking abt Ponning sch. i think i jolly well shall..Its a FREE country..i have a right to choose wad i wan..if i dun wann go to sch.no one can force me..HURMPH.. i mean im 18! i get to call it the shots man...if i dun tink lessons r gona benefit me..ill just dun go la..better than wasting my time..can use my time to do more stuff 9 like slacking)
    i had such a wonderful weekend! i dun want it to end...URGH...cant wait fer the next weekend again..im gona party my ass off...

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/19/2002

    school ended unofficially at 11.50 yesterdae fer me....WOohOO!
    i was SOOOO happy i was like jumping wif joy..i mean its fridae and i end early! wad could be better? the ultimate dream come true man!
    ...Time to hit the streets of course! (then wad..of coz not go home rite? saoz bo..)

    Went to pizza hut buffet yesterdae...i swear im never gona step in there fer a long time
    i swore the same thing like one month ago..where i ESPECIALLY ZAOED sch to eat that lunch buffet..utterly stupid i was.
    Well...yesterdae,,my fren dragged me down and we were like stuffing our faces wif food..shamelessly ...i mean everyone was like watching us..but we just took plate after plate and piled the plates up.
    being the TRUE BLUE singaporeans we were..we juz took plates after plate even before we finished wad was left on the table..
    im KIASU and i admit it. Nothing wrong wif being a little kiasu wad.
    haha...it was quite hilarious coz we kept returning to the buffet table to take more and those pple's eyes were just popping out. Well...and we thought..wad the HEck..pop then pop la..i mean we paid real good money for this anywae.

    We felt real damn good during the buffet coz we kept eating onli the ingredients and not the bread. The bread just takes up tooo much space in the stomach. i felt so damn good coz it was damn hua suan (worth the money)
    we Just peeled off the ingredients and discreetly hid the bread in tissue paper..and stuffed them into the bin discreetly. I alwaes ate the bread all along till my frend ..haha...told me not to..she told me just to eat the ingredients and chuck the bread so the stomach would have more space. That was the best advice i heard in a looong time.. sometimes i just love my frends..they have such wonderful ideas..haha. She told me she alwaes does that, and she says EVERYONE does that too tho no one admits it. Well....i dun kare...im just happy i managed to eat more my money's worth..im so full and happy...haha

    So we ate frm like 1 plus all the way to 3..endlessly eating and eating. The thing is for girls we actually have very very good appetites. Impressive. But by 3 we finally learned the folly of our greedy, kiasu ways when our stomachs started feeling reallie weird...like REALLIE REALLIE weird. I was so stuffed i reallie felt like puking out everything i ate, and looking back now, i actually dun understand how any human could actually have eaten so much..haha its amazing
    we got so sick we were like practically limping out of pizza hut. NOW i noe wad it means wen pple say u can "eat until u puke" coz i realie felt real damn bad

    after shopping at orchard,
    we went fer the rjc -acjc rugby match. Of coz..not surprisingly, we lost, the score was 0-18. i mean that was like totally humilaiting la. If it wasnt bad enuff rjc was making some lame attempts at cheers ever after we lost...in contrast to ac...it was TOTALLY EMBARASSING..i dun see how the the student counsel can bear to do such stuff..i mean..haha..ill onli lead these cheers if u paid me and if i was wearing a mask. To make things worse, my frend was abt to puke, and from the very looks of it, she might have almost puked on me...so i told her to take a walk arnd the rugby pitch, but she kept complaining that her stomach was going to the dogs. SO i had no choice but to follow her the bustop home. Halfway to the bustop, i drank the water frm the police academy and then i reallie felt like puking after tt..and the two of us were leaning against the wall moaning and groaning and some acjc pple walked past us and were laughing. Utterly mortifying. Im surprised we both didnt end up puking on each other. i tink that would have been even funnier. Thank God, but dunno by wad miracle, we managed to lumber to the bustops and get our various ways out of that place..

    lesson learned..
    1)there is a price to pay for greed

    and u noe wad?
    actually...i dun reallie give a damn. i tink if i could do it, id still do it all over again... the same..hahaaa

    2) abstain frm pizza hut buffet

    guess wad?
    i bet ill go again next month..haha

    sometimes we just never learn..
    ..haha..


    but i reallie love buffets..its this damn good feeling ..like i can take and take as much as i want and no one can control me..
    i wunder if that has some kinda psychological implication?
    i wunder wad freud would say abt tt...haha


    went to my pastors hse....todae...for bible study
    ..and got lost....spent 1 hour sweating like a pig and trying to look fer the hse wif a queasy stoach...
    it was a bad feeling..wen u r stuck in a sch uniform that feels like a sauna, sweating bullets, a heavy school bag and a nauseous stomach, walking 3km to find someones hse..is not joke..no joke at all..



    but guess wad?
    i had a great dae..
    i reallie did..

    :O) haha..i dun mind doing it again :OP i reallie dun...;OP

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/19/2002
    Thursday, May 16, 2002

    its thursday!
    URGh...got tution later on todae..*groan* ..its the subject i hate most..ECONS!!!!!! urgh...the teacher is long winded crappy and boring..and to top things off...there isnt any eye candy in class..HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ... :O(
    well...anywae...one good thing abt thursday..is that fridae is drawing near!!! hoorrraay! The weekends again! I can't wait fer the hols! One month full of slacking..lazing...shopping and PARTTYYYIINGGGGG!! woo-hooo..i dun even noe if ive got time to squeeze my homework and my studies in! hahaaa.. Anywae..i tink tution is a waste of time and money coz i alwaes just shut off everytime i go! i mean ill be trying my best to concentrate..then in the end..ill just end up either 1) nodding off 2) daydreaming 3)thinking about EVEYRTHING under the sun accept for econs...

    the bottom line is...ECONS SUCKS BIG TIME..its boring and stupid and crappy..ALL the economists in the world should just shoot themselves and die..heck..Adam Smith shouldnt even have been born..bORn to make my life one long suffering misery.. and everytime im in an econs lecture..il be thinking to myself .."if this be hell....i shure dun wanna go to hell! ever!" For all those lucky pple whu dun take econs..God bless you..! You have a damn good life..haha. Anywae i cant drop econs coz i already dropped maths..i dropped it like one day before the exams..well..u may think i was mad..and i think that was a ..little too impulsive and insane but , u noe..it just felt SO RIGHT, so i decided, wad the heck, if i dun wanna do maths, i dun do maths! so i juz dropped it..

    Im kinda looking foward to camp synergy next next week! I think its gona be a real eye opener and it may as well change my life..in some ways lah..I think its an excellent experience, so im reallie looking foward to it! At the same time, i feel a little scared coz im reallie not sure what to expect out of it. Camp synergy is this volunteer camp thingy, where we are the volunteers, guiding those well..how shuld i put it..erm "slower" kids. I heard that the kids can be relalie rough and i heard that they cant fight really well and use alot of vulgarities. Frankly speaking, im not shure if im ready to do this, im not even shure if i can handle it. From pple whom have had past experiences, they say that it can be very emotionally and physically challenging and draining as well. Im quite uncertain actually..But i guess the reason why i wanted to go fer the interview to join the volunteers was coz i wanted a new experience, and i wanted to change my perspective on life. I mean, most of us are quite sheltered and i guess theres morein life for us to see. We cant alwaes see wads ON our side, but we got to learn to look at wads on al the other sides as well.

    so what do i hope to achieve from the camp?
    well, i guess i hope in some way, ill be able the change their lives, for the better of coz, and at the same time, i hope that they will be able to change my life..fer the better as well. I think this is gona be ONE BIG meaningful experience! And one whole week of my june hols doing something useful for once instead of slackin arnd sounds good..haha its time i learnt to put my time into better use and i think this is gona be meaningful...I guess i wanna learn more abt what pple are like, instead of sticking to my own circle, i shuld try to broaden it..haha. I think its gona be great therapy fer me and the kids as well. I hope thru the camp ill be able to gain perspective, and find some meaning, and just get away..i dunno if u noe wad i mean..but sometimes i just feel you need time to get away from your world...to get away from ur life, and i see the camp as a form of me..well...leaving behind my everydae life and venturing into something interesting..something new, and something tt could change my life..

    Well...life is not all abt parties aint it?
    haha..
    nor is it abt homework or studies?

    maybe ..
    i dunno wad life is abt..

    maybe its time to
    open my eyes up..

    ...to see...

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/16/2002
    Wednesday, May 15, 2002

    See which Greek Goddess you are.



    wooHOoo....Just caLL me DOCTOr LUUUUUUURRRVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEeeeee...
    ditz?Uh-Uh Im no diTZ kay...and im not shure abt the prostitues...erm...i wunder wad they mean by "prositutes"..i hope its not like wad im tinking of....haha

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/15/2002

    hi ho...
    i jus watched " my sassy girl " today. THat show is just dead nice! i totally love it! and to all those that havent caught it in the cinemas yet..all i can say is that u pple r missing one good show. That show has all the right elements to it.. sweet....very very very sweet...yet funny at the same time..and yupz..there r tender moments too..and heartwrenching ( well according to ME) ones too! i simply ENJOYED that show very much! i LOOVVE it! haha..im not usually a sucker fer romance type of shows, but this show...well..its just different lah. okay lah, its actually all the same but i just happen to like this show,coz im biased k? :Op And it also helps that the heroine in the show is ONE babe as well...shes so damn chio..pure eye candy man.. i never knew korean girls were THAT hot..haha. So guys...this is the show for you! nice story and chio gerl.. haha...veri worth e money.

    just had chinese prelim exams today, and it sucked real bad. Well..i couldnt do like half the paper, so wif some luck ,maybe i wun fail tt badly..at least a d7 and not an f9 i hope..f9 would look kinda bad on my report card..ha..i thought my compo ( IN MY OPINION...) wasnt too bad..it was some sobby-sobby tragic story thingy. You noe..the kind all chinese teachers are suckers for...haa..the super melodramatic kind. Lets hope my marker is a lenient one. The hall was non aircon so i was feeling reallie hot and sticky and my head felt as if a limp bizkit concert was taking place in it. VERY BAD INDEED. My head alwaes feels that way when im faced with a page of chinese words. Either i start freakin or i have to control those urges of wanting to rip up the paper into tiny little shreds. My chinese teacher kinda thinks im a hopeless case as well. Wad an insult...HURMPH..i didnt think i was THAT BAD YET. ah well..so much fer encouragement.......

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/15/2002

    Which Kiss are You?

    Which Kiss Are You?




    haha..soft kiss? actually...im not toooo shure abt that one :O) *gRInz* well..very agreeAble? i tink it onli depends on agreeable towards who..haha..it realie depends i guess..HAHa..hmmm...

    actually i kinda enjoy doing these quizzes! i mean...as pathetic or weird as it sounds, these quizzes r actually quite fun and quite interesting! i mean these quizzes r no-brainers, easy-to-do, and well..quite crappy at times too, so i guess thats where all the fun comes frm! well..then again, im soo bored i'll do just about aNYTHING (except my hw) to take tt boredom away!

    i just wrote a new song! i think its pretty good..it needs some editing tho..coz it juz dosent feel right yet..it just isnt there yet, if u noe wad i mean. its basically a song abt how two frends used to be reallie close, then something happened, and their frendship..kinda..erm..u noe..fell apart. And now the person is reflecting on the past and wondering whether they were TRULY that good frends after all..yupz..its not exactly sad, but kinda wistful, and kinda longing..
    and u're probabaly gona ask if this song relates to some event in my life right? :O) and all i can say is..well..MAYBE...just maybe.. ;)

    an extract:

    ~~i wonder if you could really see me now,
    you seem to be looking pass me, looking through me,
    then i wonder if u ever really did see me, ever really knew me
    or was i just deceiving myself all this while,
    believing in a lie that i knew already all this time......~~~

    ~~~then maybe u never realli tried reaching into my heart.
    never tried to look at the inside, never reallie cared
    now the past seems so vivid yet so unclear
    the memories so near i can feel, but too far for me to touch
    and i wonder if it could have been different..
    everything slipping thru my fingers now
    crumbling away into dust and ashes
    falling into the corners of some forgotten time...~

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/15/2002
    Tuesday, May 14, 2002


    You are Electronica!

    Living a life as active and colorful as the strobe lights of the dance floor, you are electronica. Your life is a party, or at least that's how you'd like it to be. Your main themes are energy, excitement, and playfulness. You figure: life is short. You only get one shot at it, so why waste it being miserable? You're mostly concerned with immediate pleasure and are very outgoing. Even when you're sad you seem to find a reason to smile. To many this trait is very pleasant, but to those inclined to bitterness it can seem obnoxious and annoying.

    Take the what music genre are you quiz by PsychosisX!


    well...this one is also quite true...depending alot on my mood lazz..if im in a party-party mood..then yeayy..hahaha i definately believe in partying and enjoying myself coz life is reallie too short,and u onli get to live once..haha i dun believe in another life and stuff like that :)

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/14/2002






    find your element
    at mutedfaith.com.
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    this quiz thingy that i juz did..haha
    its actually quite accurate! maybe u shuld try it!...hmmm.....spirit mage eh...well, i guess its quite applicable to me :O)

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/14/2002

    hey...its been a REAAAAALLLIIIEEEEEE boring day..
    wad to do? lazed arnd and slacked arnd the whole dae...coz i didnt go to school. was sooo bored at home, but then again...sch is damn boring too..hah..thats juz life aint it?

    dawn fairy on the moon at 5/14/2002